Joy Kill

Sin kills joy.

Let me rephrase.

Sin is enjoyable in the present, but its lasting effects bring about pain and suffering.

Sin kills joy.

I think I fail to remember that my life is much better off when I choose to do the things that I am already supposed to do. When I go off tangent from what I am supposed to do, that is when I find myself stumbling down a road full of rocks and those annoying spiky balls that always seem to get stuck in the weirdest places. So let me tell you, I am on a mission to stay as far as possible from anything that would lead me to destroy my joy.

I need to protect my joy. I need to protect myself.

Have you ever been in a situation where you knew exactly what the WRONG thing to do was, and it was on your mind the entire time, but somehow, by the grace of God you were able to do the right thing? Doing the right thing is not easy. I guess thats how things are. I really really really wanted to do the wrong thing today, but in my heart, I knew what the right thing was, and I did it.

I wish I could have done the right thing the first time around, then maybe I wouldn't have had my joy killed like it is. But its too late, and I'm sure that God can restore my joy. I was happy for a while, but honestly, screw being happy, I want the joy joy joy joy down in my heart.

Sin kills joy. I've been the worst sinner of them all (which is an exaggeration since we are all freaking horrible sinners, but honestly, I've been a pretty jacked up Christian), and its time for me to really ask for repentance for whats been going down in my life.

I need to work on a lot of things.

1. It is impossible to win an argument. Even if you win, you lose. It is possible to have a good discussion (just to clarify).
2. Compliments are much more powerful than critiques. I am definitely in need of complimenting people more.
3. There are power in my words. Especially love, hate, forever, never, always, and all the other words that express unwavering emotion.
4. I need more patience.
5. When people bother me, I need to find a way to make it so they don't bother me... I don't know how to do this.
6. Learn the importance of being important. (People need to feel important, even Christians, but the right way to feel important is knowing that God thinks your are important)
7. How to hold someone's heart.
8. So much more.


Time to write something lyrical.